people talking about their personal (and I mean bedroom personal) lives in very public places. As I sit on campus typing this I have had the (not-so) pleasure of listening to 3 males talk about all the ‘hoes’ that’s been sending them dirty pictures and how hard they’re going in. To be frank I do not care about your lives. Or how much sex you’re getting (but based on the fact that you’re all sitting here refusing to show each other the pictures I doubt that is true). People school is not for talking about the sex you’ve been having. Especially when you’re sitting in the study area where people who are working are sitting. It’s not only disturbing (I have major PDA issues) but it’s also disrespectful. You’re disrespecting yourself, and the individual who may or may not have done said things that you are describing. (prob did not as you all sound like urban dictionary definitions) Please stop. You sound like middle school boys describing their vivid dreams. 

Pouring out our emotions via texting. You know phones still have call options that allow you to speak to someone directly. Even better if you do feel the need to text why don’t you text a location to meet up with someone to have this conversation. I will never understand why people chose to hide behind emoticons instead of dealing with their emotions face to face. It’s not that hard.
You only require a meeting place and your voice to communicate. And if you forget how to communicate here are some nifty tips.
1. Open your mouth
2. Speak
Simple. Let your fingers have a break and let you vocal chords do their job. And maybe your problems will be sorted out without as many conflicting emoticons.

punishing aggression by being aggressive? I don’t understand how lashing out at someone because they lashed out at you makes anything better. It’s like telling a kid not to steal by stealing something of theirs. Not teaching anyone anything except how to be a hypocrite. How about the next time someone angers you by being aggressive you stop and think about it for a moment and learn how to use your words to enunciate how that behaviour is wrong, instead of your fists or raising your voice. Because don’t try to preach what you ain’t practising.

crazzzzzzy people? Working in a guest services position at a widely known place has made me realize how insane some people are. In particular middle aged white women. Now I’m not being racsist but some of these women take everything to the extreme. And I know that they’re not mad at me per say but hey I take it personally. When you start throwing names around I’m going to stop trying to help you. So please all you insane people that don’t get what they want or have to stand in line for 30 mins at a busy place - knowing that it’s a busy place you’re going too - stop for a minute and think. When you come to yell at me for a refund and I say no don’t complain about the 30 minute line up you just stood in. You know policy is no refunds it says it everywhere. Go enjoy your day, or better yet don’t come. 

choosing your life at 18? Today I realized that I was 17 when I had to map out the rest of my life. And boy oh boy was I not ready. (And yes I realize I’m still 18) Well my unpreparedness has lead me to go semi-insane at school. I worked all through high school to get into the Con-Ed program at Brock and streamlined everything I did in those four years to get myself a spot. This included the jobs I had (yay for camp!), the volunteer work I did, the after school programs I joined and the courses I took. Well because of this when my doubts kicked in when I was applying, well after I applied, I realized that I wasn’t 100% sure that I wanted to be a teacher but there wasn’t much as I could apply too. I was happy that I got into Brock but because of my uncertainty I seemed to psych myself out before going. This made it much harder to settle in and meet people. Didn’t help that I lived off campus and knew no one going into this experience. Well this seemed to have a snowball effect and now I have withdrawn from Brock as I have realized that I most defiantly do not want to be a teacher. I feel like I may have wasted a year of my life and threw away something I worked so hard for. But I know I can’t think like that. Everything happens for a reason and hopefully my future university experience will be more exciting then this one was. So I’m keeping my fingers crossed for Waterloo and I’m thanking Brock/Kitts for the lessons I learnt. 

extreme Facebook couples? Don’t get me wrong I love a little love in my life but if I know every single detail of your relationship then we got a problem. If I know that your boyfriend has cheated on you the exact same moment you have then that’s a problem. If I know the exact moment you found out your girl isn’t preggo then we got a problem. I don’t want to third wheel in your relationship. I don’t want to know about your relationship. I don’t mind cute pictures of the two of you but changing your face to your significant others face is not cute. It is Facebook. NOT ‘MyBoosFacebook. So please next time you complain about everyone being all up in your relationship remember that you’re letting them by posting, every single detail. 

creeps? I’m trying to be your friend why are you being so weird. It not only makes me feel super uncomfortable but it makes you look like a psycho. Honestly to all you people out there that think it’s appropriate to make suggestive comments when you first meet someone it’s not. It’s creepy. (Unless that’s your game and you’re trying to hit on them but it probably won’t work.) You need to establish the fact that you’re not a creepy mofo first so I actually have a reason to want to get to know you better and hang out with you. As the friendship progresses then please let your weirdness come out as by then I’ll probably be waaaay more comfortable around you. And yes this post is for you. Creep.

haters? I get that not everyone can like everyone but why must people make their dislike for others so evident? And when people hate without cause it’s even worse. If you’re going to make judgements about someone without even knowing them or on facts someone else has given you then you should go back to high school (and if you’re in high school stay there). Why don’t you give new people in your life a chance before hating? This is super common amongst girls. Ladies why do we blindly hate one another? Just because she’s good friends with one your guy friends (or crush) isn’t a reason to call her a bitch. In reality it probably means that you two would get along because you both look for the same traits in others hence why you have mutual friends. Also who judges someone on what they’re wearing. Who cares? Is the other person forcing their attire on to you that you’re so against it? It’s called creativity, if I want to walk around in my bubble gum pink jeans with my feather extensions in my hair then let me. I’m not asking you to do the same. Sure you might disagree with my choice of clothing but does that really make me weird? Nope! So please people before you judge and name call get to know someone. Make the effort to talk to them and get to know who they truly are. And then if you still don’t like them take yourself out of the friendship gracefully. There’s no need to be a hater and to hate publicly. It’s not classy, it’s trashy. 

2011 was full of firsts. I learnt a lot about who I am and what I want in life. But I also realized that I wasn’t living the life I wanted for myself but rather the life I thought I wanted. I wanted the perfect Grade 12 experience with the perfect prom, the perfect date and the perfect friends. I did not get all that I wanted. My friends were far from perfect but they were there and I love them all for that. My prom sucked. And grade 12.. well it could have been better. I also learned that jut because you can get away with something doesn’t mean you should do it. I regret nothing though as I am still learning about who, ‘Naadirah Hassan’ really is. But hopefully 2012 will treat me better. And I made some resolutions on how I want to get to where I want to be.  

1. Get my G2. I’ve had my G1 for 2 years now, I think it’s time to upgrade.

2. Find a hobby. I think I’ll enjoy St. Kitts a lot more if I find something I like to do there. A few things on the list, learn how to sew, learn how to apply eye makeup really well and take a photography course (film not digital). 

3. Finish my novel. I want to finish writing my novel and attempt to get it published. Even if it doesn’t get published I want that experience of putting my work out there for others to see and hopefully enjoy. 

4. Learn the balance between trusting someone and opening up to someone. I think my biggest problem is that as soon as I trust someone I’m able to talk to them about everything even though I shouldn’t. I need to find out who really cares about me and who wants the gossip.

5. Make new/better friends. I’m going to put in much more of an effort to meet people in St Kitts. And the friends I do have, well if they’re bringing me down there’s no reason to have them in my life.

6. Volunteer more. I loved volunteering throughout high school since it made me feel like I was accomplishing something so I think I need to do more of it in uni. 

7. Communicate with my parents more. I now know that they are willing to listen even if they disagree. 

8. Spend less money/get a job. If I want to splurge then I need a job because using my parents’ money makes me feel guilty sometimes.

9. Audition for a play. This will help me become more confident again and will let me explore my acting chops. I  don’t know why I even tried to cut out the drama department from my life.

10. Most of all be happy. This is all I really want. I just want to be happy with what ever I’m doing and where ever I am. I’m going to stop dwelling on the negatives and look towards the positives. 

2012 is going to be about me and my happiness. And if you’re not in my life to keep me positive then I think it’s time for us to go our separate ways. 2012 is about making me happy and not living for others to be proud. I am going to do what I what and when I want it because I deserve to be me. 

people? I sometimes seriously hate people and let them know. I am the person walking through the mall claiming their hate for the human species. And no it’s not because I’m anti-social or socially awkward or think I’m just to good for everyone. It’s because at the end of the day people suck. Here are some reasons why I hate people. 

1. Some people are just so entitled. Like honestly I hate it when people feel like they’re entitled to everything because of their parents hard work. If you think you deserve it you better have had worked for it. 

2. Those people that text and walk. Especially in busy malls.. over the holidays. WHY MUST YOU DO THAT?!?! Walk and stand in a corner to text if there’s like a bajillion people around you. 

3. Crowds. I think I just don’t like a lot of people and the holiday seasons is where everyone comes out of hibernation and gather round.